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Title: Can't Get Warm
Author: kadollan
Disclaimer: This work is a piece of fan-fiction that is intended for entertainment purposes only. James "Bucky" Barnes and Steve Rogers are owned by any number of people who are not me.
Primary Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes and Steve Rogers
Rating: Teen
Type: Gen
Warnings: Cold, Feels, Major Character Death (or not)
Word Count: 1358
Summary: Bucky wakes up cold on a table in a German camp, and he can't get warm.

Events in Captain America: The First Avenger from Bucky's POV.


As always, many thanks are due to my dear betas, cybermathwitch and jessofthebugs. Thank you darlings! Any remaining mistakes are, of course, my own.

I've had a lot of feelings about Bucky Barnes ever since I first saw Captain America.

Before, Bucky always saw himself as Steve’s protector.

(Also on AO3)

NaNoWriMo and a Meme

I've got just shy of 9,000 words on my NaNo and I'm pretty happy with what I've written so far. I thought I was going to write the HP Shakespearean Romp, but what I seem to actually be doing is working on Avengers short stories.

I'm not sure how that happened, but I just wrote 1600 words of Bucky POV stuff set during Captain America: The First Avenger. ::wibbles::

Anyway, I'm writing some stuff that doesn't suck, so I'll take it. Even if it wasn't quite what I was expecting.

Now, on to the meme! Stolen most recently from cybermathwitch.

Pick any passage of 500 words or less from any fanfic I’ve written, and
comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you the
equivalent of a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I
wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what’s going on in the
character’s heads, why I chose certain words, what this moment means in the
context of the rest of the fic, lots of awful puns, and anything else that
you’d expect to find on a DVD commentary track.

My fic can be found either here at Awfully Clever or here on AO3.

Play with me!

I have a confession to make

I'm worried that I've lost my mojo. Such as it was.

I'm doing NaNo in two weeks and I haven't the least clue what I'm writing. I asked for prompts two weeks ago and my brain just freezes up whenever I go to write one.

WTF is the matter with me?


(I apparently have not lost the ability to be melodramatic.)


Okay, anyway, right now I have two major contenders for my NaNo novel.

Option #1 is an idea I first came up with in 2010, I think. To wit: Harry Potter Post Epilogue (Next Gen) story. James has cast a spell that prohibits Lily from dating until after Albus does (ala 10 Things I Hate About You/Taming of the Shrew). James thinks he's terribly clever because he knows Albus is too shy to date. Lily actually IS very clever, and knows that Albus isn't just shy -- he is also in love with his best friend Scorpius. I initially thought that this story would be from Albus' POV (as is traditional in the other versions, where Albus = Kate)... but this is totally Lily's story.

OBSTACLES: I need the boy that Lily wants to date. He needs to be an OC, and worthy of our girl. Also, I'm in the middle of a different Lily-centric story, and I want to not cross my streams (neither of these are really obstacles. I'm such a whiner).

Option #2: Avengers fandom. I talked about this a little bit when I wrote my Steve Rogers character study. Steve/Bucky. Steve and Bucky never got together before the war -- there was some interest from both parties, but neither of them realized that the other one would be open to the idea, so unrequited UST of a fairly sweet nature. Then Bucky ships out, and gets captured and Steve changes before they find each other again. In the months that they are raiding together as Howling Commandoes they very nearly have a Moment, but end up having a fight instead. Then Bucky dies. Then Steve dies. And that's really where my story would start. (The story would be mostly in the "now" of story time, modern day after the Winter Soldier is found. The rest is told as flashbacks and memories.)

So, tell me Oh Wise Flist -- which should I write? Please to cast your votes in the comments (preferably with a word or two saying why you'd suggest one over the other). Please bear in mind that I have to date written only about 1500 words of Avengers fic. I've done 4 NaNoWriMos worth of Harry Potter fic (plus some). One could argue that fact in favor of either option above, depending on which way it was spun.

Progress is Being Made

Oh hey! I only have two of the character study things left -- both for cybermathwitch Kara Thrace and Natasha Romanov. I can do those tonight maybe and then I'm freeeeeeeeee.

Well, free accept for the drabblets I owe people. I'm really struggling with inell's. It just doesn't want to do right.

Once I'm done with that (and not before, because I told you guys to thump me if I started any new memeish things), I'm going to ask my flist for questions to pose to the Avengers. I did this last year for Harry Potter, and it really helped me find my voice (their voice, actually).

So... be thinking of questions you'd like to as the Avengers and their assorted staff, compatriots, co-workers, and buds.
Well, look who is actually catching up on her backlog of memes? I've done a couple more character studies, and an un-betaed drabble (you wouldn't think that it would take a month to write 120 words.)

I kind of figure that if I don't get it together and actually answer my memes and prompt requests, no one will play with me anymore. I lack credibility. :\

In real life news, I'm hosting a baby shower this weekend for one of my besties. I need to get my house clean, decorate, go to the grocery store, make food and (oh yeah) get her a present. The party is on Saturday, and I hope that she enjoys it. I'm avoiding most of the more kitschy sweetie-poo aspects of the traditional baby shower. She's not a particularly girly-girl, and I'm pretty sure she'd punch me if I suggested we play "guess how big mama's tummy is."

And rightfully so.

Anyway, look for continued updates on the character studies and drabbles (not that anyone but me still cares at this point.)

And also look for a fair among of hand-wringing about NaNoWriMo. I'm still not sure what I'll be writing. At this point it's a toss up between a Harry Potter post-Epilogue story, finishing my Neville story (which is what I thought I'd settled on, but apparently not), or doing something Avengers related.

It's that "something" part that has me worried.

Poking My Head In

I aten't ded.

Do you like how I was all "prompt me for drabbles!" and then I disappeared for two three weeks?

Yeah, me neither.

Anyway, I'm going to get those done this week (I'm hoping to get some inspiration for NaNoWriMo -- Three weeks to go, and I've got no clue what I'm writing.) And I'll also finish up that character meme from last month.

Yeah, if I post another meme before those are finished, will one of you thump me?

Prompt for Drablish Ficlets

I'm feeling itchy to start writing again, but nothing sounds like what I want to write. It's like I have literary constipation.

(Is that too much? That was too much, wasn't it?)


I'm asking for drabble prompts! Drop me a prompt in the comments and I will do my best to write you something that we will be somewhere between 100 and... more than 100 words.

I'll accept Harry Potter and Avengers fandoms for sure. You're welcome to prompt for another fandom, but I make no promises as to the results.

Sep. 15th, 2012

cybermathwitch and I went out for sushi and Avengers (two great tastes that taste great together. Or separately. Or in any combination...I digress) last Tuesday. It was my fourth time seeing it in theaters, and her 389th. It really does hold up. I mean, yeah there are places where it's a little over-done (Hawkeye's uber-dramatic "bow extension" move, f'rinstance), but it's a comic book movie. It's supposed to be a bit over-done, and I still puffy-heart love it.

Pusher that she is, she is trying to talk me into writing a "team bonding" fic that involves Darcy teaching them all how to play Shanghai Rummy.

I'm kind of tempted, if I could get my brain to hold still long enough. I am supposed to be working on editing Neville, and I haven't been doing that either. And now I'm waffling about what I'll do for NaNo. I am terrible at this game.

Here's the Thing About Me. I'm slow.

So, remember that post I made last week about how I'm slow and I'm still working on that meme?

Yeah, so I'm still slow. And still working on that meme.

I spent Labor Day weekend cuddled up on the couch with my kids watching Alton Brown and knitting. That's pretty much the life right there. My eleven year old son is a major Alton Brown fanboy -- he loves the science in Good Eats as well as the general level of wackiness. I got him to help me make no-bake cookies on Monday.

And a good time was had by all.

What Another Meme?

I know, I know, I'm not done with the last one yet.

Gacked from e'rybody.

Pick a number from the list and I'll answer it in the comments. I reserve the right to choose the fandom, unless you specifically ask for one.

1 - Your current OTP.
2 - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind.
3 - A pairing you have never liked and probably never will.
4 - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.
5 - Have you added anything stupid/cracky/hilarious to your fandom? If so, what?
6 - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom?
7 - Do you remember your first OTP? If so who was in it?
8 - Do you prefer characters from real action series or anime series?
9 - Has the internet caused you to stop liking any fandoms? If so, which and why?
10 - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr your social network sites.
11 - How do you feel about the other people in your current fandom?
12 - Your favorite fanartist/author gives you one request. What do you ask for?
13 - Your favorite fanart or fanartist.
14 - Your favorite fanfiction or fanauthor.
15 - Choose a song at random. Which OTP does it remind you of?
16 - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas).
17 - A ship you’ve abandoned and why.
18 - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships.
19 - Show us an example of your personal headcanon.
20 - Do you remember what your first fanwork was?
21 - Self-rec: What's your favorite fanwork you've created?
22 - Are you one of those fans who can’t watch anything without shipping?
23 - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms.
24 - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms.
25 - A fandom you’re in but have no ships from.
26 - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go.